So last year I was very bummed out and decided I’d change my life in 2016. I haven’t FYI…
I’ve had a really great year, not to brag. I ran a triathlon, visited South America and had my own Edinburgh show. But here’s the thing- that costs. And at some point I’ll have to start paying.
Truth time, I haven’t made over £1000 for over 4 months. My rent is ridiculously cheap and I barely make it. I’m freelance and the work hasn’t been pouring in like it used to but also I didn’t work for two months this year. I’ve just been stacking up debt like it’s pokemon, gotta catch em all. My credit score started from the bottom and got lower, which is totally fine because I couldn’t be further from having a mortgage. Career wise I’m not facing a promotion. I’m starting to feel like something in my personality doesn’t suit a competitive environment. I don’t want to slag off my employers because I enjoy getting paid but also they’re pretty good to me. However I’m freelance and so I’ve been putting feelers out for full time work.
Here’s the thing about looking for work- it’s a full time job that pays shit all. Potential employers are allowed to ask you to send a personalised CV for every job, a covering letter, an essay, plus fill out a form and write a 500 word story about taking a dump- YET they don’t have to even respond to say ‘no thanks.’ Isn’t that bizarre?
I’ve applied to jobs above my station, at my station and below my station and none of them are having it. Am I the only person with a degree, a masters, almost six years experience in live TV, who is basically unemployable. I applied for a job in a coffee shop down my road and they literally ignored me, twice. Honest to god I’ve had one interview at an estate agents for a Saturday job. A job that was previously done by a 17 year old. The job didn’t work out, which is good actually because I’m dirt and deserve to feel like it.
Shouldn’t finding work get easier as you get more experience? That is not what I’ve found. I don’t understand how employers can request such weirdly specific things in their adverts and still find someone to take the job. I saw a job the other day for a runner who had to have five years experience. If you’ve been a runner for five years I’d argue you’re not that good at your job… no?
I mean- is this just the industry I’m in? Or is everyone feeling like this? I’m basically unemployable. How much worse does it have to get before it gets better? How many jobs must I apply for and not hear back from? The other day I applied for a job as a runner for a one day shoot and they never replied. What? Yes some people have much worse problems and I shouldn’t complain. 2016 has been unkind to many, Prince for example. But some how my problems seem worse because they’re happening to me. I know that seems self involved because it is but I don’t care. Being self involved shouldn’t make you unemployable. Who gives a shit?
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